luxor

I've been on a chocolate binge in the past few minutes. These Lindt chocolates that my landlady's mother offered since she couldn't eat all of them. Too much sugar. I feel gross.

But not as gross as last night, when I drank too much.

Drinking too much for me = 1 shot of tequila + 1 mixed drink + sips of other people's drinks.

I got bored of my group, so I walked home. Took about 20 minutes. Along the way, I peed on someone's wall, tried to steal balloons off someone's front porch steps, stopped by lab, took tubes out of the pcr block, ate some cheese ravioli alfredo, and went home to sleep.

mus hus

Last night I had a dream where I was inside the mouse facility, except I wasn't wearing any sterile protective clothing.

Need to stop thinking about lab, or reading science articles, before I go to bed.

psychotropic

I had a dream last night about Clare. Drab was there too, except he was soundly sleeping for the most part.

Clare's back was facing me, so I moved around to have a look at him, and he was bawling. Whether they were tears of joy or sadness, I couldn't tell. Then, he came out to me, and said he had a boyfriend.

Yeah, that's about it.

I wonder if it's because I've kept in touch with those two out of practical usage- both being in close proximity. Although now Clare is over on the east coast, so I'm not sure why he appeared in the dream. Maybe Drab would have been the one coming out if Clare hadn't manifested in that scene.

The new stem cell building is nice. I like the feeling of standing on air, so I walk closely towards the railing on the walkways of the building. Nice rooftop garden as well. It must be terrifying for whomever has acrophobia.

Janey's smattering of emotion makes me feel as though I were an infant being smothered with a pillow.

What does it take to learn all there is to know about epilepsy? 2000 pages. PAINFUL. I suppose I should get started right away.

wrinkles in time

Is there a place that's darker than that dark place?

With my constantly negative thinking every day now, I think I've reached a darker place.

How am I going to get out of this pickle?

cumate

I suppose one might consider it flattering to be hit on by both Asian guys and girls from the mainland, but...

I'm too tired to deal with their forwardness.

I hate my lab manager, in terms of both his personality and his work ethic. I don't understand why my boss can't see through his bullshit and laziness.

Why was I the only one criticized harshly during our one-on=one meeting regarding that individual development plan???

decisive

I had a meeting with my Dan this morning, going over some individual development plan that he wants to implement with the lab.

The thing is, I wrote down some things to explain why I could not achieve my top 10 goals in the year. I don't even know if it was my intention, but it came across as excuses, with me being resentful of everyone in lab, particularly my lab manager.

Dan says that we don't communicate with each other well, and maybe that is true to some extent, but what am I supposed to say without hurting anyone's feelings?

Hmm I'm feeling a little better.

I can't even remember what I was writing before lunch.

flushed

Dearest Nants,

I would like you to know that today, I have embraced the shame.

First at Austin Bergstrom International Airport, and then again at Phoenix Sky Harbor International Airport.

This has been the most shameful flights of my life.

Sincerely,

J

P.S. I forgot to mention that I embraced the shame in Waco as well, after drinking Pedialyte.

sperry

Off to Phoenix in the morning!

Then back to SF!

Spent the day at the Hillsboro Outlets on a shopping spree, what with the 8.25% tax rate here and all the sales going on. I should just make purchases on clothing whenever I come to Texas.

Packing. 6 hours of sleep tonight, more onboard both flights tomorrow. Maybe go grab a haircut tomorrow night after flying in. All in all, not a bad day.

Looking into new smartphones, don't know which one to get. There's the obvious choice: the iPhone 4. Then there's the Samsung Captivate, but then there's also the Meizu M9. I need a decent smartphone that's thin enough to fit in my pocket, doesn't drop calls, and doesn't eat up the battery during the day. Really don't care about video streaming, music, or the camera.

dougie

I bought some weird street shirts. Still living in my fantasy of hip-hop dance groups.

Teach Me How to Dougie
Spam: Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner
Sesame Street
Plaid long-sleeved shirt

And some plain crew-neck tee's from Old Navy.

I ended up giving away the spam shirt to my brother. Psh.

SO cheap to go shopping in Texas. More and more, I feel as though if I returned to Texas, I actually wouldn't mind staying in H-town. And only H-town. I would need a really big incentive to go to Dallas.