8.31.2008

mammary

Took one of these face memory tests, got 70 out of 72 faces. The average normal person scores around an 80%. So I guess I don't have that disease. What was it, prosopagnosia?

On another test, I couldn't recognize Gandhi or Tony Blair. OR Margaret Thatcher. This unattractive black woman popped up on the screen, I guessed Condoleeza Rice, and supposedly got it right. Blanked out for a while on John Travolta and Jim Carrey. 27 out of 30. I know celebrities' faces more than world leaders/politicians. Hmph.

I'm better at numbers, multiple objects, face memory, average at verbal pairs, and below average on abstract art. I also score the attractiveness of men and women 1.5 below the average for both.

And since I'm wasting my time on tests, it is now 3:30AM.

8.29.2008

periodontal

So behind on the lingo. Term: ghey. Like gay, minus the homosexual undertone. But they still use the word fag. Try getting out of that one.

My Proust was a Neuroscientist book is finally shipping. Speaking of neuroscientists... dinner with Drab. All that I expected? Well, you know the saying, hope for the best, expect the worst.

Another clue: my dream last night consisted of me having nonstop diarrhea all over the place. The more I wiped, the more I found on my hand because it was on places that I wouldn't think that I'd have to wipe.

More on this later.

Have to read up for classes.

8.28.2008

ocelli

Song played outside my window for the day: "Walk the Line."

The back of one girl's shirt read: "Beat This!" Her aspirations for future spousal abuse tickles me.



Went here for a snack with my parents. Don't go! Dim sum is NOT supposed to taste sour.



This rock formation was named Mushu, after the dragon in Mulan.



A comparison: Drab is like east San Francisco, where the Bay Bridge lies. Bright, seemingly cheery, inundated with harmful solar radiation.



I, on the other hand, am like west San Francisco, where the Golden Gate lies. More appropriately, I am the fog that has come to extinguish Drab's light.

paralympics

I miss my Numa Numa ringtone.

Not going to write much for a while, taking a break. Expect pictures + captions.



So I'm obsessed with kitchen supplies. I actually went to school today and tried to sit in a science class since I have nothing better to do with my time. 10 minutes into the session, I realized I was sitting in a dietitics and food management class instead, and didn't want to get up and leave because it'd be rude. It turned out to actually be interesting that they would be learning how to taste food and determine if a wine is good, if a salad is good, if food is cooked properly, if a waiter is actually providing quality service. I was also sitting next to this attractive half-Asian girl, although she didn't seem so bright. For a split second, I almost allowed her to reach down and grab my pen that dropped to the floor, so that we might touch hands when she gives it to me, but rational thought jump started in the nick of time. Conclusion: I found out why there were no attractive girls in science; they're in all the other classes.



Overbearing mother.



Liked the house when I first saw it. The resident of this house likes Frederick's of Hollywood- their mailbox was open, and a busty gal was laying there.

8.25.2008

cankles

Watching that documentary Hopkins on ABC... thinking about congealed pig's blood when they put the kid on bypass.

That UCSF guy was on there, too. The illegal Mexican immigrant who's made a name for himself as a neurosurgeon. I think it was Quinones-Hinojosa.

My parents have FINALLY left. Before they came, I had almost emptied my fridge of all food. Now, they leave with the fridge completely full. Always resetting my progress. This is like what happened in 9th grade, when my mom just decides to throw my art project into the trashcan, and because it wasn't salvageable, I had to start over and work through the morning just to finish it. What teacher's going to believe the excuse that your own mother threw your homework into the garbage? Anyhow, also managed to get the Jewish guy to clear his stuff out of the closet.

It'd be nice if Nants and I entered med school at the same time. Hopefully not at the same place. Glad she's committed to hospice work in the past year. It's something she planned on doing, and followed through.

One of the last times I'll get to have months off for summer vacation.

foster city

The problem with riding in the car with my parents: they like to take 92E instead of west, leading us to crossing the San Mateo bridge with no exits until we cross ALL of the 8.5 miles of water! UGH.

OH, an e-mail from Nants! Always nice to receive content-heavy letters from people you haven't talked to in a while. I archive those in my gmail. And then there's BMC. The Baylor med school isn't notifying me of an acceptance nor rejection, but food of all irrelevant things. Food with Claremont-McKenna, what an odd combination of schools.

I glanced over into the next room at this AMAZING restaurant in Foster City, to find a wedding banquet being held by some Chinese family. I had a lapse of judgment when I erroneously thought I wanted that in the future. Besides, the bride was wearing a horrific dress- how could the groom be able to say his vows in front of her without throwing up?

I don't think I'm buying small shirts. I might just be growing. It could be a second puberty- it would explain the acne. Still no facial hair...

8.19.2008

crushed velvet

So much for not feeling old. I'm already getting emails to register for AARP membership.

Time to take a dump. A photo dump.



I don't know. Something tells me that, as of late, rising bodies of water haven't been the type of thing people see as peaceful.



Random things I see that catch my eye.



Tourist crap with my parents at some cavern around Stockton?



Are those windmills used to gather wind energy? A solution to our energy crisis, and below them, the cause. Mmm.



On the way back into the city, the initials on the plate of this car was shouting in front of me. Hmm, I MIGHT remember someone with those initials, but I don't think too hard about it.



Somewhere in San Jose. Once again, the bells are ringing, but I keep my earplugs fastened. Everywhere I go, signs try to tell me something. I need to start burning those signs.

malocclusion

Another birfday, another time. Jalto's just caught up to the rest of us, yet Janey and Nants are now racing to the nursing home in another 3 months.

Was going to add photos to this post, but wanted to celebrate Jalto's bday in spirit before the day ended. It's probably ended over there as well.

Have to wake up early AGAIN. My parents want to have fun with me in SF. Ugh.

8.18.2008

tetrabenazine

I wasn't talking about you in that last post, Jalto!

Dreams: a reflection of the future?

One from last night: I was living in some house all by myself, typing away at my computer in my tiny office space, when I look outside the blinds to see Clare leading his pack of all-male friends to my doorstep. As expected, a ring. I open the door to find Clare drunk off his ass, to the point where he was holding vomit in his mouth already, waiting to throw up in typical fashion in my toilet. I told him he could just leave it outside, but being his noncompliant shit-faced drunk self, he ignores my suggestion and instead heads to the bathroom to do his own thing, while his friends force themselves into my place, scrounging around the kitchen for food. Fucking freeloaders.

8.17.2008

luxemburgerli

Ooh London. If it's good enough for the British, it's good enough for me.

What's the opposite of pedophilia? Only thing that comes to mind is necrophilia, or geriatric-philia.

At least I've figured out a few things from this year. I keep thinking about all the mistakes made at Rice, particularly with respect to my grades. Several possibilities sprang in my head: too heavy a course load, too many extracurriculars, personal events that may have derailed me, friends, family, lack of focus, lack of motivation, not smart enough, or just not cut out for a certain profession.

I wonder if I did all that- busying myself with classes, a part-time job, club activities- just so that I wouldn't have to deal with or think about the other things going on in my life.

Still figuring it out. Not rushing into any conclusions.

Then you just hear people you know calling others stupid, or just claiming that they're smarter than the average person. Is it because they just want to claim a sense of superiority over their peers because they've failed to achieve anything else great in their life? Do they need to feel better than everybody else because the rest of their life is mediocre? Or was it just a fortunate turn of events where they were born into middle class society, never having had to actually work a minimum wage, full-time job in their life, constantly being supported by their parents so that they had free time for intellectual pursuits?

My mom keeps stealing all my chapstick. My parents are becoming a thorn in my side. The only redeeming part is that they're teaching me how to cook a slew of Chinese dishes.

8.16.2008

papeles

$26 for a computer program to organize research articles for me. I'm not even considering full-time research as a career.

My parents are in love. More than I've seen them be in years. Disgusting, but I guess I could give this relationship thing a try. I'll start with friends and work my way up.

Getting text messages from Drab about bonfires. How many bonfires does one need to go to? I suppose the next time it happens, if I want my clothes to smell like an ashtray for days, I'll attend.

Trying to generate a book list in preparation for applications, except the only way to know is to sift through my numerous entries on my blog. What a pain.

MMMM medical school applicant statistics... they sure make my cloudy days cloudier. I'm feeling the pressure that I need to do really well on my MCAT the second time around.

8.14.2008

inamorata

Haha, how many movies of Dennis Quaid have you seen that remind you of stone fox?

King of Wonton & Dumpling: a big, fat NO.

Almost had a heart attack today because I thought this tall, pale white guy talking on his cell phone and walking towards my direction was Drab. Yes, I'm hellbent on not running into Drab while my parents are around. Also walking around campus, my parents were talking to this white guy because we were lost, and all the wrinkles around his face, particularly his ocular region, reminded me of Drab. It would have been awkward had I started laughing at him right then.

You guys ARE camping/hiking this weekend right?

My parents keep walking in to every realtor... because they're thinking about buying a house or townhouse in the city. What the hell?! Weren't they complaining to me all year about how they have no money?!

This guy was tying his dog down today before walking into a restaurant on Irving, and he was giving his dog the Chinese command to sit. And it sat!

8.11.2008

number six

No more than 10 minutes after seeing my parents, I already get tired of them. Now we're all back at my place. I would rather take a sledgehammer to my forehead than have to live with them for who knows how many weeks. They haven't told me! UGH!

EW don't NOM on Dennis Quaid- he's OLD! Old enough to be your father! Isn't he 53/54??

I've been eating everything in my fridge to empty it before I move out, except now that my parents are here. Within an hour of shopping they manage to restock the entire fridge. UGH.

News update for Jalto: John Mayer and Jennifer Aniston have broken up. Good call.

Some younger lady called me 很帅 today.

I think my parents are going to be here for 2 weeks. I hope I fall upon a sharp edge before the end of August.

ponyo

Why do they allow former gymnasts do math online, only to screw up the calculations?

Are there any places in SF where I can laminate things?

Another weird composite dream last night:

I was in a shooter, killing these monsters inside a mansion.

One of my cousins was in a room playing toys. I walk outside of the house to find that he's living next to another Asian family, who decide to invite themselves over to our place to play.

I accidentally walk in on Dennis Quaid having a threesome with two other men.

Hmm, before going to sleep I also recall saying something to Janey about her relationship with Dan, but I don't remember what the exact words were. Probably honest and brutal.

8.09.2008

beatitude

Dealt with Kaiser. Ugh, so many things gone wrong. Maybe this misfortune around me is intentional- I must be willing it into existence. She's one of the few people that I'm able to look directly in the eyes because her emotions are also personally sealed off, preventing any chance of being able to see mine, if I slip. Her sense of taste is still sharp, as I took her to Tuttimelon, which she also did not approve. It's very unlikely that she'll be coming to SF to work for the year.

Now I need to buy another Muni map because I offered it to her so she wouldn't get lost. Ugh stupid stupid stupid.

Tomorrow I have to deal with picking my parents up from the airport. Pouring their money down the drain in Vegas, psh.

Need good TV show recommendations. Anybody? And NO sci-fi!

Whatever, doerfy, soy is the new hot item on the rack. It's going to be as ubiquitous as high fructose corn syrup in the next few years. Suck it!

The American commentators are such sore losers, blaming it on the Chinese women's age, experience, their own people. Not only that, but they publicly humiliate the American team with such stupid questions, always trying to find someone or something to blame.

8.08.2008

battledore

Maybe engagements make people feel morose because they themselves haven't been or aren't in a relationship long enough to reach that point. Other people's happiness is your misery?

My online checking account consists of transactions that include rent, groceries, and kfc. Sad.

Getting my haircut today, there was only one other customer in the salon- this old white lady. Since no music was playing, I could hear her conversation with the barber. She said,"I'm not voting for Obama, I'm voting against McCain." The two apparently have problems with decrepit, white millionaires who always want to go to war, and black folk.

Mmm the fog's settling in...

After finishing the 2 seasons of Burn Notice, I continued watching It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia. One of the guys was wearing the 3 ninjas grey shirt that Hesse used to wear, and some other guy has that Irish drinker, non-fighter shirt that Clare used to wear.

Ugh, can't believe I'm nervous. And sore. Exercise for my health, HAH! What a load.

I find myself intentionally stopping myself before I start talking/thinking about people, because it might mislead people into believing I care about them. So much for that positive outlook after coming back from LA...

gordon sumner

Oh right, I forgot to congratulate Maury on her engagement. Even though Marky Mark was our suite mate junior year, I feel as though I became better friends with Maury than him. For good reason. So they're engaged, but when are they getting married?

Kaiser's coming up from Fremont. Is there anything exciting to do in that city? As a friend, I should be excited about seeing people, but it's stressing me out more than anything. Rashes are forming all over my body, acne bursting on the face, plus I need to get a haircut so that I don't look like a dork. Ugh.

And then I have to deal with my parents, who keep reminding me not to turn off my cell phone and to be at my place so that they won't be locked out when they arrive. Should probably cancel my internet service and PG&E soon...

8.07.2008

vocal fry

My new obsession, after black women, is black men. Particularly, Barack Obama.

I decided to start web searching for his interviews on talk views. Also, watching Michelle Obama doing the fist bump. It's the new handshake?

Him: charismatic, although he falters in his interview responses. Her: says "you know" a lot in her conversations. Still, they both love bacon!

The tune of the week being blared from a car outside my window: UB-40's "Red, Red, Wine."

Watching the parade of nations- G Dub and Laura look like a nice old couple. It's a shame he made so many mistakes.

I could hear them playing ABBA in the background during the parade. Confirmation?

Today I was live streaming the archery events just to watch the rain fall and listen to the cpop music playing in the background. I need to find better things to do...

Apparently the gold medalists in any event at the Olympics gets to have their favorite song played in the venue after they win?

Sausage doesn't seem to go well in spaghetti sauce... maybe the intestinal wrapper needs to be removed first?

excelsis deo

Readership decreases if my posts aren't angry or poking fun at people. Predicament?

My brother and cousins have had more stable relationships than any of my friends.

Can the word cruising be used for girls as well as gays when in pursuit of men?

The Vietnamese fried rice = sensory overload. Too many flavors clashing- ginger, garlic, Chinese sausage, soy sauce, fish sauce, basil, meat, vegetables. I tried adding more white rice to my original concoction to dilute it; didn't help.

UGH! They're not streaming the opening ceremonies over the internet! I missed all the bright colors... now would be a good time to buy a TV, or mooch off someone that has one.

My grandmother's house is always going to be my favorite retreat, even if I break out in acne every time I visit them. Something about the air down there that makes my skin oily all the time.

Kaiser's coming to SF. Kaiser's coming to SF?! An unexpected surprise. I suppose I could get my lazy butt out of my apartment before my parents arrive the day after. It's probably a good time to get a haircut as well- haven't gone in a month. Haven't seen her since March. Wonder what she'll be like after graduation, an existential crisis, and multiple trips to Asia. I should probably brush up on the news since she's one of those intellectual types, whereas I'm just a country bumpkin.

doxology


Stir-fried asparagus w/ pork and tofu?

Vegetarian dish with eggplant and tofu... yeah, this dish has not convinced me otherwise- vegetarian dishes are nasty.

Vietnamese Fried Rice.

Another shot.

passagio

18.

4 dreams last night:

1st: Dinner, where Clare and Drab were wearing these horrendous matching windbreakers, which they both got from waiting in line at some concert being one of the first customers to arrive or whatever. There were patches of red, blue, and yellow stripes against a solid black background. Then Clare and I were on some school bus talking to MattPatt, and AGAIN Clare left with me at the same stop, gracing me with his drunken presence at the end of the night. We were walking up the circular staircase in this swank hotel that I was apparently staying at, when all of a sudden I could see Clare about to burst into his drunken rage because he had lost his keys. We headed to my hotel room, where we saw Alicia Burns-Wright eating her dinner outside in the hallway. Clare finally called MattPatt and realized that he was holding onto the keys since he left them on the bus, or MattPatt stole it from him, not sure which.

2nd: I was living in a new apartment, and just stood there, amazed at how much space the driveway took in San Francisco. It could hold 2 cars in the left garage, 2 in the right, and countless more in the central one.

3rd: I was in a dorm room sleeping, but then woke up to see my grandmother sweeping the courtyard through my window. Then I was laying in bed with my roommate, explaining to him how to solve these two math puzzles- the first one had to do with inserting the right arithmetic operations between numbers so that the sequence of numbers would lead to the last number, while the second one involved placing the numbers in the right place, so that the arithmetic operations would make sense.

Then I walked outside to find that my dormitory's exterior was in the style of a medieval castle, but I didn't stare for too long because a dragon was attacking the town with his flame breath. I distracted the dragon long enough for Tezuka from the Prince of Tennis manga/anime to arrive and hurt the dragon with one of his specialty tennis moves. The dragon flew away, but it was going to come back, so I was running around town in circles trying to find a way to defeat the dragon.

4th: I was at a dinner with Drab and other people, one guy who claims to live near me in the Outer Sunset, on 34th and Santiago. Some store in the mall was bugging me for some reason, and the people at the table were explaining to me that I needed to have this certain card, which they gave to me for next time. Then Drab started telling me that he was going to move out of his place in January of 2009. I asked him why, because I thought he liked them. His response was,"Well I like (insert dog's name), but I can't stand Ah-na." I don't even know if he lives with an Anna, even if he said it pretentiously. Then he added,"Oh yeah, and Peter, too." Next I asked him where he was moving to, not sure why I cared because that information would serve me no purpose.

8.06.2008

lien

After everyone gets their PhD, I plan to sit in at least one of their class sessions, assuming they plan to teach. For my amusement.

What's a good pair of running shoes, if I want to purchase some?

If I ever started up my own company, everyone working there would get summer vacation every year.

Favorite segment from SATC: when Miranda walks to her apartment and opens it, finding Steve kneeling at the door. Right after he opens the box and shows the ring, Miranda responds,"What are you, fuckin' crazy?!"

HAHA!

The next episode where Carrie says,"I used to think those people who sat alone at Starbucks writing on their laptops were pretentious posers..." reminded me of Clare's comment where he wanted to get a macbook touch.

8.05.2008

scad

Dream last night:

Anthropomorphic dogs and cats in the city, ruled by a fox.

All the cats in each household kept hissing at me.

Then I was summoned by the head honcho to meet with him.

He didn't like me or something, so he whistled and all the dogs in the neighborhood gathered at his headquarters to get rid of me.

They all started to lunge at me, but I had a cane-shaped lead pipe in my hand, which I started swinging around.

I managed to knock out one of the dogs before waking up.

8.03.2008

bird's nest

Well then, does your worldview allow for John Mayer's TERRIBLE acoustic cover of my Tom Petty's "Free Fallin'" in his "Where the Light Is" DVD? My cousin kept playing that OVER and OVER again when I trying to go up in tennis rankings on his PS3.

OHHHH!!! They're going to stream the Olympics Live on the internet!

So I have an obsession with Summer and Winter Olympics.

What will be interesting to see this time around is how people deal with China, how China's athletes will deal with China. Pollution, doping, living up to their promises to the world (although I never thought they would succeed in the last one). My focus is on the gymnastics and swimming/diving events.

Hmm, maybe I'll try to go down to San Jose and play in one of those trivia nights Clare blabs about in conversation. Supposedly, San Jose is one of the best cities in the U.S. for men to live.

I can stir-fry, but I can't do popcorn. Once I opened the microwave, I thought it was this nice steam that was puffing out of the bag of kettle corn, so I decided to take in a small whiff. Instead, it was a cloud of burnt toxic carbon trying to invade my lungs! Horrible!

Nice feeling that the world is still large.

Found two cuts on two fingers last night, after cooking dinner. I also found a rash on my thumb, one of the fingers I nicked, and I thought it might have been necrotizing fasciitis, so I drew a line with a black pen to see if the reddening on my thumb would spread after a night's sleep. So far it's just browned- it might be the oil from the popcorn that burned my thumb.

In my head, there's already a list of 10+ baby names for a son, only 2 for a daughter.

art garfunkel

"Jason Mraz is a soft summer romance, washed away by the August rain. But John Mayer will wrap you up and keep you warm all winter long."

My response: the only thing John Mayer is wrapping up is a condom around his dong and keeping Jennifer Aniston's vajayjay warm all winter long.

"I'm Yours." I'd prefer a soft summer and August rain all year long. Speaking of August birthdays...

Secret: If someone calls I sometimes let my cell phone keep ringing just to hear the rest of the tune.

bump key

I think it's over. Me, wanting to scrutinize everything. Ready to move on. To what, though...

I wouldn't call myself a bitter person. It's a matter of perspective. To someone more extreme than me, I would be perceived as positive. To someone equal to my personality, it could be seen as neutral. Relativism.

Maybe I just ran out of things to criticize.

Definitely feels like a Sunday.

Janey tried to explain some fable to me yesterday, but the only thing I can remember from it is sour grapes. I like sour grapes, though.

Didn't Clare want to do some kind of hike/being in tune with nature? This coming from someone who claimed that he only likes to eat, and drink. There was one last thing, but I can't remember whether it was listening to music or having sex.

Going to bed by 2 now. Managed to make bed time earlier by 3 hours. Waking up at 10, but going back to sleep until noon. Trying to wake up at 7 again, start my days early.

Poop time.