It's happening again. This phase where I come into work angry each day.
Is this a sign that I should just quit my job?
As much as I enjoy the science, is there a point to me working each day when everyday, I have to deal with the deficiencies of my PI and lab manager?
I consider my boss to be a blind idiot who is completely oblivious to the daily occurrences of lab. I consider my lab manager to be the dumbest person alive to have ever joined our lab, with the following personal attributes: lazy, procrastinates, unreliable, not punctual, not on top of things, irresponsible, blames others/external forces for his own mistakes, overly sensitive/defensive to criticism, unprofessional, rude, morally bankrupt, and vindictive.
I wrote up a list of the 10+ things I hate about working with my lab manager. No redeeming quality whatsoever came up. Granted, this IS a hate list. Even then, writing away one's anger, one should be able to discover some positive aspect about a person, right?
This puts me in a predicament, though. If I quit, I have free time to study and travel. On the other hand, I would have to explain this during interviews my reason for quitting, and asking my PI to write my letter of recommendation would be uncomfortable. I stay, I get a decent letter, but I have to spend another year dealing with these people, who are reluctant to change.
2.28.2011
2.27.2011
creamy alfredo
Is it possible that you just don't want to kiss someone BECAUSE you like them so much?
And that you just have your way with them just because you were brought up to be well-mannered?
Are there awkward situations that arise between people because they like each other, but are too nervous to act upon their impulses?
And that you just have your way with them just because you were brought up to be well-mannered?
Are there awkward situations that arise between people because they like each other, but are too nervous to act upon their impulses?
2.26.2011
immolation
I'm fed up with our lab manager.
He sucks.
5 members of the lab group, including me, met after our journal club meeting Friday.
I finally discovered that they all shared the same sentiments as me regarding our coworker.
They are very dissatisfied with him, his lack of effort, diligence, punctuality, professionalism, every quality that makes someone easy to get along and work with.
He pissed me off again today when I asked him to update a list of accounts involving sites that the lab orders common supplies from. Even though I tried to explain to him the reason for adding accounts to obscure companies, he just mouthed off like always because he doesn't like doing work at work.
Such a jackass. I've reached a point where I just want to storm in to my PI's office and offer him an ultimatum where only one of us can stay in this lab. I can't work anymore with someone who holds the lab back by delaying their progress.
He sucks.
5 members of the lab group, including me, met after our journal club meeting Friday.
I finally discovered that they all shared the same sentiments as me regarding our coworker.
They are very dissatisfied with him, his lack of effort, diligence, punctuality, professionalism, every quality that makes someone easy to get along and work with.
He pissed me off again today when I asked him to update a list of accounts involving sites that the lab orders common supplies from. Even though I tried to explain to him the reason for adding accounts to obscure companies, he just mouthed off like always because he doesn't like doing work at work.
Such a jackass. I've reached a point where I just want to storm in to my PI's office and offer him an ultimatum where only one of us can stay in this lab. I can't work anymore with someone who holds the lab back by delaying their progress.
2.18.2011
wnt
I think I can understand why people take sick leave from work.
My nose has its typical texture from blowing into too many tissues: skin rubbed into a red rawness through removal of the epidermis.
My sinuses congested to the point of being unable to breathe properly.
My head filled to the point of impending explosion.
Ohhhhhh need to leave work soon...
My nose has its typical texture from blowing into too many tissues: skin rubbed into a red rawness through removal of the epidermis.
My sinuses congested to the point of being unable to breathe properly.
My head filled to the point of impending explosion.
Ohhhhhh need to leave work soon...
2.06.2011
long necks
Relationships change. You could just feel it with each passing day.
I don't see things as a race anymore. It's not a matter of catching up with everyone. Otherwise I would just live each day feeling left behind.
The same thing that I noticed with Poorneel, I see it happening again with Nants and Janey.
People are just busy, and it seems as though everyone's day has been busier.
My Dan's little Dan gave me a toy truck this weekend when the lab had a get-together at Half Moon Bay. Ate lunch made by one of the postdocs and his partner. We talked, we ate, we drank. I tried to get little Dan to play Scrabble with me, teach him to build words, learn new ones, but his current cravings consist mainly of trains and destruction. However, he was quite amused when I decided to be creative with the scrabble tiles and lay them in intricate domino patterns, for him to later knock down, of course.
Children are so easy to please, difficult to keep focused. That sounds an awful lot like me still.
The times I enjoy lab the most are when it's late at night, with few neighbors moving up and down the aisle, leaving me room to breathe and quietly think.
I don't see things as a race anymore. It's not a matter of catching up with everyone. Otherwise I would just live each day feeling left behind.
The same thing that I noticed with Poorneel, I see it happening again with Nants and Janey.
People are just busy, and it seems as though everyone's day has been busier.
My Dan's little Dan gave me a toy truck this weekend when the lab had a get-together at Half Moon Bay. Ate lunch made by one of the postdocs and his partner. We talked, we ate, we drank. I tried to get little Dan to play Scrabble with me, teach him to build words, learn new ones, but his current cravings consist mainly of trains and destruction. However, he was quite amused when I decided to be creative with the scrabble tiles and lay them in intricate domino patterns, for him to later knock down, of course.
Children are so easy to please, difficult to keep focused. That sounds an awful lot like me still.
The times I enjoy lab the most are when it's late at night, with few neighbors moving up and down the aisle, leaving me room to breathe and quietly think.
2.02.2011
Huguenot
One of Janey's loves, Alexander Rudensky, is coming to give a seminar talk. I don't know if I feel like going, although people have advised the grad students in my lab to read broadly rather than deeply.
Perhaps this also applies to other aspects of graduate school aside from reading those monotonous journal articles. One problem I've been trying to nip in the bud concerns being able to read an entire article completely in one sitting without instinctively distracting myself with other less mundane activities.
Lab has been feeling better. I come to lab less angry, and I have learned to say no to people when they ask me for favors, in particular the lab manager. My negative opinion about him will never change unless he does.
Perhaps this also applies to other aspects of graduate school aside from reading those monotonous journal articles. One problem I've been trying to nip in the bud concerns being able to read an entire article completely in one sitting without instinctively distracting myself with other less mundane activities.
Lab has been feeling better. I come to lab less angry, and I have learned to say no to people when they ask me for favors, in particular the lab manager. My negative opinion about him will never change unless he does.
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